Death by Chocolate...

February 1st 2013

Dear B,

Two weeks have passed since I have last written to you. I just do not know where the time goes. I sleep a lot these days and usually by the time I get up to do my morning ritual of getting coffee and checking email it is pushing two in the afternoon.

What woke me up today was the slamming of the ambulance doors outside the house. The lady across the street must have gone into another self-induced diabetic coma again. It has become a monthly occurrence. Half the time the EMTs just give her a shot to regulate her sugar and she is fine within a few minutes. The other half, she goes for the ride to the hospital only to be released either the same or next day. What a way to live.

I keep thinking that one of these days she is going to go into a diabetic shock and her husband won't be there to call 911. Or maybe the EMTs will be too late to administer that special life saving shot or that her body isn't going to recover and she's going to die regardless of what the paramedics do. To pass clutching a bag of chocolate chip cookies isn't exactly a dignified way to go. Then again, what is?

Not much else has changed in the last two weeks though. The weather has been crazy though. The temperature got down to the single digits last week. Then it warmed up to nearly 50 degrees the other day only to drop back down to around freezing today. It has snowed a few days but nothing really accumulated. Oh, and it got windy. Really windy with gusts up to around 50MPH. I haven't noticed any downed limbs in the yard but I haven't really gotten out either.

Last week I took all the Christmas decorations down and packed them away for another year. The house looks so empty now. It was a sad few days packing up the trees and putting away your still wrapped presents that are now two plus years old. I think I got a total of three Christmas cards this year. Now I know why people are so depressed this time of year.

Some doctors and scientists blame it on the shorter days and lack of sunlight. I think it's the fact that a new year has come into existence and nothing has changed but the fact that I am hanging a new calendar up. I'm still broke. I still have a ton of bills with no work coming in and nothing on the horizon either. Nothing has changed. You are still gone and no longer a part of my life.

For the last two weeks I've been advertising on Craigslist that I have a room to rent. I have not received any replies thus far. I'm not crazy about taking in another boarder but I need a way to make the mortgage payments somehow.

I'm advertising used computes for sale and computer services on Craigslist as well. I haven't had any luck there either.

The year is 1/12 over already. There are just over 46 days until the first day of Spring. Not that I have anything to look forward to in the Spring.

The ambulance is gone. It left empty again. It looks like the neighbor lives another day. I guess some people get to have their cake and eat it too.

I miss and love you.

-Dad XO